The way is suspicious, the result uncertain, perhaps
destructive,
You would have to give up all else, I
alone would expect to
be your sole and exclusive standard,
Your novitiate would even then be long and
exhausting,
The whole past theory of your life and all conformity to the
lives around you would have to be abandon'd,
Therefore
release me now before troubling yourself any
further, let go your hand from my shoulders,
Put me down
and depart on your way.
Or else by stealth in some wood for trial,
Or back of a rock in the open air,
(For in any roof'd room of a
house I emerge not, nor in
company,
And in libraries I lie as one dumb, a gawk, or unborn, or
dead,)
But
just possibly with you on a high hill, first watching lest
any person for miles around approach unawares,
Or
possibly with you sailing at sea, or on the beach of the sea
or some quiet island,
Here to put your lips
upon mine I permit you,
With the comrade's long-dwelling kiss or the new husband's
kiss,
For I am the
new husband and I am the comrade.
Or if you will, thrusting me beneath your clothing,
Where I may feel the throbs of your heart or rest upon
your
hip,
Carry me when you go forth over land or sea;
For thus merely touching you is enough, is best,
And
thus touching you would I silently sleep and be carried
eternally.
But these leaves conning you con at peril,
For these leaves and me you will not understand,
They will
elude you at first and still more afterward, I will
certainly elude you,
Even while you should think you had
unquestionably caught
me, behold!
Already you see I have escaped from you.
For it is not for what I have put into it that I have written
this book,
Nor is it by reading it you will acquire
it,
Nor do those know me best who admire me and vauntingly
praise me,
Nor will the candidates for my
love (unless at most a very
few) prove victorious,
Nor will my poems do good only, they will do just as
much
evil, perhaps more,
For all is useless without that which you may guess at many
times and not hit,
that which I hinted at;
Therefore release me and depart on your way.
1860 1881
FOR YOU O DEMOCRACY
COME, I will make the continent indissoluble,
I will make the most splendid race the sun ever shone
upon,
I will make divine magnetic lands,
With the love of comrades,
With the life-long love of comrades.
I will plant companionship thick as trees along all the rivers
of America, and along the shores of the
great lakes, and
all over the prairies,
I will make inseparable cities with their arms about each
other's
necks,
By the love of comrades,
By the manly love of comrades.
For you these from me, O Democracy, to serve you ma
femme!
For you, for you I am trilling these songs.
1860 1881
THESE I SINGING IN SPRING
THESE I singing in spring collect for lovers,
(For who but I should understand lovers and all their sorrow
and joy?
And who but I should be the poet of comrades?)
Collecting I traverse the garden the world, but
soon I pass
the gates,
Now along the pond-side, now wading in a little, fearing not
the wet,
Now by the post-and-rail fences where the old stones thrown
there, pick'd from the fields, have accumulated,
(Wild-
flowers and vines and weeds come up through the
stones and partly cover them, beyond these I pass,)
Far,
far in the forest, or sauntering later in summer, before I
think where I go,
Solitary, smelling the earthy
smell, stopping now and then in
the silence,
Alone I had thought, yet soon a troop gathers around me,
Some
walk by my side and some behind, and some embrace
my arms or neck,
They the spirits of dear friends
dead or alive, thicker they
come, a great crowd, and I in the middle,
Collecting, dispensing, singing, there