in
myself,
Many times have I been rejected, taunted, put in prison, and
crucified, and many times shall be
again,
All the world have I given up for my dear brothers' and sisters'
sake, for the soul's sake,
Wending
my way through the homes of men, rich or poor,
with the kiss of affection,
For I am affection, I am the
cheer-bringing God, with hope
and all-enclosing charity,
With indulgent words as to children, with fresh
and sane
words, mine only,
Young and strong I pass knowing well I am destin'd myself
to an early death;
But
my charity has no death my wisdom dies not, neither
early nor late,
And my sweet love bequeath'd
here and elsewhere never
dies.
3
Aloof, dissatisfied, plotting revolt,
Comrade of criminals, brother of slaves,
Crafty, despised, a drudge,
ignorant,
With sudra face and worn brow, black, but in the depths of
my heart, proud as any,
Lifted now
and always against whoever scorning assumes to
rule me,
Morose, full of guile, full of reminiscences,
brooding, with
many wiles,
(Though it was thought I was baffled and dispel'd, and my
wiles done, but that
will never be,)
Defiant, I, Satan, still live, still utter words, in new lands duly
appearing, (and old ones also,)
Permanent
here from my side, warlike, equal with any, real
as any,
Nor time nor change shall ever change me or my
words.
4
Santa Spirita, breather, life,
Beyond the light, lighter than light,
Beyond the flames of hell, joyous, leaping
easily above hell,
Beyond Paradise, perfumed solely with mine own perfume,
Including all life on earth,
touching, including God, including
Saviour and Satan,
Ethereal, pervading all, (for without me what were
all? what
were God?)
Essence of forms, life of the real identities, permanent, positive,
(namely the unseen,)
Life
of the great round world, the sun and stars, and of man,
I, the general soul,
Here the square finishing,
the solid, I the most solid,
Breathe my breath also through these songs.
1865-6
OF HIM I LOVE DAY AND NIGHT
Of him I love day and night I dream'd I heard he was dead,
And I dream'd I went where they had buried
him I love, but
he was not in that place,
And I dream'd I wander'd searching among burial-places to
find
him,
And I found that every place was a burial-place;
The houses full of life were equally full of death,
(this house
is now,)
The streets, the shipping, the places of amusement, the Chicago,
Boston, Philadelphia,
the Mannahatta, were as
full of the dead as of the living,
And fuller, O vastly fuller of the dead than of the
living;
And what I dream'd I will henceforth tell to every person and
age,
And I stand henceforth bound to
what I dream'd,
And now I am willing to disregard burial-places and
dispense with them,
And if the memorials
of the dead were put up indifferently
everywhere, even in the room where I eat or sleep, I
should be satisfied,
And if the corpse of any one I love, or if my own corpse,
be duly render'd to powder and pour'd in the
sea, I shall be
satisfied,
Or if it be distributed to the winds I shall be satisfied.
1871 1871
YET, YET, YE DOWNCAST HOURS
Yet, yet, ye downcast hours, I know ye also,
Weights of lead, how ye clog and cling at my ankles,
Earth
to a chamber of mourning turns I hear the o'er
weening, mocking voice,
Matter is conqueror matter,
triumphant only, continues
onward.
Despairing cries float ceaselessly toward me,
The call of my nearest
lover, putting forth, alarm'd,
uncertain,
The sea I am quickly to sail, come tell me,
Come tell me where I
am speeding, tell me my destination.
I understand your anguish, but I cannot help you,
I approach, hear,
behold, the sad mouth, the look out of the
eyes, your mute inquiry,
Whither I go from the bed I recline
on, come tell me;
Old age, alarm'd, uncertain a young woman's voice,
appealing to me for comfort;
A
young man's voice, Shall I not escape?
1860 1871