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the water, up in the air, and even under the ground. And many young men in it, mostly in wardrooms and mess-rooms, used to say to each otherpardon the unparliamentary wordthey used to say, Its a damned bad war, but its better than no war at all. Sounds flippant, doesnt it? He heard a nervous, impatient sigh in the depths of the couch while he went on without a pause. And yet there is more in it than meets the eye. I mean more wisdom. Flippancy, like comedy, is but a matter of visual first-impression. That world was not very wise. But there was in it a certain amount of common working sagacity. That, however, was mostly worked by the neutrals in diverse ways, public and private, which had to be watched; watched by acute minds and also by actual sharp eyes. They had to be very sharp indeed, too, I assure you. I can imagine, she murmured, appreciatively. What is there that you cant imagine? he pronounced, soberly. You have the world in you. But let us go back to our Commanding Officer, who, of course, commanded a ship of a sort. My tales if often professional (as you remarked just now) have never been technical. So Ill just tell you that the ship was of a very ornamental sort once,* with lots of grace and elegance and luxury about her. Yes, once! She was like a pretty woman who had suddenly put on a suit of sackcloth and stuck revolvers in her belt. But she floated lightly, she moved nimbly, she was quite good enough. That was the opinion of the Commanding Officer? said the voice from the couch. It was. He used to be sent out with her along certain coasts to seewhat he could see. Just that. And sometimes he had some preliminary information to help him, and sometimes he had not. And it was all one, really. It was about as useful as information trying to convey the locality and intentions of a cloud, of a phantom taking shape here and there and impossible to seize, would have been. It was in the early days of the war. What at first used to amaze the Commanding Officer was the unchanged face of the waters, with its familiar expression, neither more friendly nor more hostile. On fine days the sun strikes sparks upon the blue; here and there a peaceful smudge of smoke hangs in the distance, and it is impossible to believe that the familiar clear horizon traces the limit of one great circular ambush. Yes, it is impossible to believe, till some day you see a ship not your own ship (that isnt so impressive), but some ship in company, blow up all of a sudden and plop under almost before you know what had happened to her. Then you begin to believe. Henceforth you go out for the work to seewhat you can see, and you keep on at it with the conviction that some day you will die from something you have not seen. One envies the soldiers at the end of the day, wiping the sweat and blood from their faces, counting the dead fallen to their hands, looking at the devastated fields, the torn earth that seems to suffer and bleed with them. One does, really. The final brutality of itthe taste of primitive passionthe ferocious frankness of the blow struck with ones handthe direct call and the straight response. Well, the sea gave you nothing of that, and seemed to pretend that there was nothing the matter with the world. She interrupted, stirring a little. Oh, yes. Sincerityfranknesspassionthree words of your gospel. Dont I know them! Think! Isnt it oursbelieved in common? he asked, anxiously, yet without expecting an answer, and went on at once. Such were the feelings of the Commanding Officer. When the night came trailing over the sea, hiding what looked like the hypocrisy of an old friend, it was a relief. The night blinds you franklyand there are circumstances when the sunlight may grow as odious to one as falsehood itself. Night is all right. At night the Commanding Officer could let his thoughts get awayI wont tell you where. Somewhere where there was no choice but between truth and death. But thick weather, though it blinded one, brought |
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