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In exterior he resembled a butcher in a poor neighborhood, and his eyes had a look of sleepy cunning. He carried his fat paunch with ostentation on his short legs, and during the time his gang infested the station spoke to no one but his nephew. You could see these two roaming about all day long with their heads close together in an everlasting confab. I had given up worrying myself about the rivets. Ones capacity for that kind of folly is more limited than you would suppose. I said Hang!and let things slide. I had plenty of time for meditation, and now and then I would give some thought to Kurtz. I wasnt very interested in him. No. Still, I was curious to see whether this man, who had come out equipped with moral ideas of some sort, would climb to the top after all, and how he would set about his work when there. On the contrary. It appears their intercourse had been very much broken by various causes. He had, as he informed me proudly, managed to nurse Kurtz through two illnesses (he alluded to it as you would to some risky feat), but as a rule Kurtz wandered alone, far in the depths of the forest. Very often coming to this station, I had to wait days and days before he would turn up, he said. Ah, it was worth waiting for!sometimes. What was he doing? exploring or what? I asked. Oh yes, of course; he had discovered lots of villages, a lake toohe did not know exactly in what direction; it was dangerous to inquire too muchbut mostly his expeditions had been for ivory. But he had no goods to trade with by that time, I objected. Theres a good lot of cartridges left even yet, he answered, looking away. To speak plainly, he raided the country, I said. He nodded. Not alone, surely! He muttered something about the villages round that lake. Kurtz got the tribe to follow him, did he? I suggested. He fidgeted a little. They adored him, he said. The tone of these words was so extraordinary that I looked at him searchingly. It was curious to see his mingled eagerness and reluctance to speak of Kurtz. The man filled his life, occupied his thoughts, swayed his emotions. What can you expect? he burst out; he came to them with thunder and lightning, you knowand they had never seen anything like itand very terrible. He could be very terrible. You cant judge Mr. Kurtz as you would an ordinary man. No, no, no! Nowjust to give you an ideaI dont mind telling you, he wanted to shoot me too one daybut I dont judge him. Shoot you! I cried. What for? Well, I had a small lot of ivory the chief of that village near my house gave me. You see I used to shoot game for them. Well, he wanted it, and wouldnt hear reason. He declared he would shoot me unless I gave him the ivory and then cleared out of the country, because he could do so, and had a fancy for it, and there was nothing on earth to prevent him killing whom he jolly well pleased. And it was true too. I gave him the ivory. What did I care! But I didnt clear out. No, no. I couldnt leave him. I had to be careful, of course, till we got friendly again for a time. He had his second illness then. Afterwards I had to keep out of the way; but I didnt mind. He was living for the most part in those villages on the lake. When he came down to the river, sometimes he would take to me, and sometimes it was better for me to be careful. This man suffered too much. He hated all this, and somehow he couldnt get away. When I had a chance I begged him to try and leave while there was time; I offered to go back with him. And he would say yes, and then he would remain; go off on another ivory hunt; disappear for weeks; forget himself amongst these peopleforget himselfyou know. Why! hes mad, I said. He protested indignantly. Mr. Kurtz couldnt be mad. If I had heard him talk, only two days ago, I wouldnt dare hint at such a thing. I had taken up my binoculars while we talked and was looking at the shore, sweeping the limit of the forest at each side and at the back of the house. The consciousness of there being people in that bush, so silent, so quietas silent and quiet as the ruined house on the hillmade me uneasy. There was no sign on the face of nature of this amazing tale that was not so much told as suggested to me in desolate exclamations, completed by shrugs, in interrupted phrases, in hints ending in deep sighs. The woods were unmoved, like a maskheavy, like the closed door of a prisonthey looked with their air of hidden knowledge, of patient expectation, of unapproachable silence. The Russian was explaining to me that it was only lately that Mr. Kurtz had come down to the river, bringing along with him all the fighting men of that lake tribe. He had been absent for several monthsgetting himself adored, I supposeand had come down unexpectedly, with the intention to all appearance of making a raid either across the river or down stream. Evidently the appetite for more ivory had got the better of thewhat shall I say?less material aspirations. However he had got much worse suddenly. I heard he was lying helpless, and so I came uptook my chance, said the Russian. Oh, he is bad, very bad. I directed my glass to the house. There were no signs of life, but there was the ruined roof, the long |
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