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It was quite still out of doors; the village on the further side of the pond was already asleep; there was not a light to be seen, and only the stars were faintly reflected in the pond. At the gate with the lions on it Genya was standing motionless, waiting to escort me. Everyone is asleep in the village, I said to her, trying to make out her face in the darkness, and I saw her mournful dark eyes fixed upon me. The publican and the horse-stealers are asleep, while we, wellbred people, argue and irritate each other. It was a melancholy August nightmelancholy because there was already a feeling of autumn; the moon was rising behind a purple cloud, and it shed a faint light upon the road and on the dark fields of winter corn by the sides. From time to time a star fell. Genya walked beside me along the road, and tried not to look at the sky, that she might not see the falling stars, which for some reason frightened her. I believe you are right, she said, shivering with the damp night air. If people, all together, could devote themselves to spiritual ends, they would soon know everything. Of course. We are higher beings, and if we were really to recognize the whole force of human genius and lived only for higher ends, we should in the end become like gods. But that will never bemankind will degenerate till no traces of genius remain. When the gates were out of sight, Genya stopped and shook hands with me. Good-night, she said, shivering; she had nothing but her blouse over her shoulders and was shrinking with cold. Come to-morrow. I felt wretched at the thought of being left alone, irritated and dissatisfied with myself and other people; and I, too, tried not to look at the falling stars. Stay another minute, I said to her, I entreat you. I loved Genya. I must have loved her because she met me when I came and saw me off when I went away; because she looked at me tenderly and enthusiastically. How touchingly beautiful were her pale face, slender neck, slender arms, her weakness, her idleness, her reading. And intelligence? I suspected in her intelligence above the average. I was fascinated by the breadth of her views, perhaps because they were different from those of the stern, handsome Lida, who disliked me. Genya liked me, because I was an artist. I had conquered her heart by my talent, and had a passionate desire to paint for her sake alone; and I dreamed of her as of my little queen who with me would possess those trees, those fields, the mists, the dawn, the exquisite and beautiful scenery in the midst of which I had felt myself hopelessly solitary and useless. Stay another minute, I begged her. I beseech you. I took off my overcoat and put it over her chilly shoulders; afraid of looking ugly and absurd in a mans overcoat, she laughed, threw it off, and at that instant I put my arms round her and covered her face, shoulders, and hands with kisses. Till to-morrow, she whispered, and softly, as though afraid of breaking upon the silence of the night, she embraced me. We have no secrets from one another. I must tell my mother and my sister at once. Its so dreadful! Mother is all right; mother likes youbut Lida! She ran to the gates. Good-bye! she called. And then for two minutes I heard her running. I did not want to go home, and I had nothing to go for. I stood still for a little time hesitating, and made my way slowly back, to look once more at the house |
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