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a momentary shock among the stars, and a diffusion of frosty light pass from one to another along the sky. At the same instant, a corner of the blind was lifted and lowered again at once. He laughed a loud ho-ho! One and another! thought Will. The stars tremble, and the blind goes up. Why, before Heaven, what a great magician I must be! Now if I were only a fool, should not I be in a pretty way? And he went off to bed, chuckling to himself: If I were only a fool! The next morning, pretty early, he saw her once more in the garden, and sought her out. I have been thinking about getting married, he began abruptly; and after having turned it all over, I have made up my mind its not worth while. She turned upon him for a single moment; but his radiant, kindly appearance would, under the circumstances, have disconcerted an angel, and she looked down again upon the ground in silence. He could see her tremble. I hope you dont mind, he went on, a little taken aback. You ought not. I have turned it all over, and upon my soul theres nothing in it. We should never be one whit nearer than we are just now, and, if I am a wise man, nothing like so happy. It is unnecessary to go round about with me, she said. I very well remember that you refused to commit yourself; and now that I see you were mistaken, and in reality have never cared for me, I can only feel sad that I have been so far misled. I ask your pardon. said Will stoutly; you do not understand my meaning. As to whether I have ever loved you or not, I must leave that to others. But for one thing, my feeling is not changed; and for another, you may make it your boast that you have made my whole life and character something different from what they were. I mean what I say; no less. I do not think getting married is worth while. I would rather you went on living with your father, so that I could walk over and see you once, or maybe twice a week, as people go to church, and then we should both be all the happier between whiles. Thats my notion. But Ill marry you if you will, he added. Do you know that you are insulting me? she broke out. Not I, Marjory, said he; if there is anything in a clear conscience, not I. I offer all my hearts best affection; you can take it or want it, though I suspect its beyond either your power or mine to change what has once been done, and set me fancy-free. Ill marry you, if you like; but I tell you again and again, its not worth while, and we had best stay friends. Though I am a quiet man I have noticed a heap of things in my life. Trust in me, and take things as I propose; or, if you dont like that, say the word, and Ill marry you out of hand. There was a considerable pause, and Will, who began to feel uneasy, began to grow angry in consequence. It seems you are too proud to say your mind, he said. Believe me thats a pity. A clean shrift makes simple living. Can a man be more downright or honourable to a woman than I have been? I have said my say, and given you your choice. Do you want me to marry you? or will you take my friendship, as I think best? or have you had enough of me for good? Speak out for the dear Gods sake! You know your father told you a girl should speak her mind in these affairs. She seemed to recover herself at that, turned without a word, walked rapidly through the garden, and disappeared into the house, leaving Will in some confusion as to the result. He walked up and down the garden, whistling softly to himself. Sometimes he stopped and contemplated the sky and hill-tops; sometimes he went down to the tail of the weir and sat there, looking foolishly in the water. All this dubiety and perturbation was so foreign to his nature and the life which he had resolutely chosen for himself, that he began to regret Marjorys arrival. After all, he thought, I was as happy as a man need be. I could |
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