Vent. Out with it; give it vent.
Ant. Urge not my shame.
I lost a battle,
Vent. So has Julius done.
Ant. Thou favourst me, and speakst not half thou thinkst;
For Julius fought it out, and lost it fairly:
But
Antony,
Vent. Nay, stop not.
Ant. Antony,
Well, thou wilt have itlike a coward, fled,
Fled while his soldiers fought; fled first, Ventidius.
Thou
longst to curse me, and I give thee leave.
I know thou camst prepared to rail.
Vent. I did.
Ant. Ill help thee.I have been a man, Ventidius.
Vent. Yes, and a brave one; but
Ant. I know thy meaning.
But I have lost my reason, have disgraced
The name of soldier, with inglorious
ease.
In the full vintage of my flowing honours,
Sat still, and saw it prest by other hands.
Fortune came
smiling to my youth, and wooed it,
And purple greatness met my ripened years.
When first I came to
empire, I was borne
On tides of people, crowding to my triumphs;
The wish of nations, and the willing
world
Received me as its pledge of future peace;
I was so great, so happy, so beloved,
Fate could not
ruin me; till I took pains,
And worked against my fortune, chid her from me,
And turned her loose; yet still
she came again.
My careless days, and my luxurious nights,
At length have wearied her, and now shes
gone,
Gone, gone, divorced for ever. Help me, soldier,
To curse this madman, this industrious fool,
Who
laboured to be wretched: Prythee, curse me.
Vent. No.
Ant. Why?
Vent. You are too sensible already
Of what youve done, too conscious of your failings;
And, like a scorpion,
whipt by others first
To fury, sting yourself in mad revenge.
I would bring balm, and pour it in your wounds,
Cure
your distempered mind, and heal your fortunes.
Ant. I know thou wouldst.
Vent. I will.
Ant. Ha, ha, ha!
Vent. You laugh.
Ant. I do, to see officious love
Give cordials to the dead.
Vent. You would be lost, then?
Ant. I am.
Vent. I say you are not. Try your fortune.
Ant. I have, to the utmost. Dost thou think me desperate,
Without just cause? No, when I found all lost
Beyond
repair, I hid me from the world,
And learnt to scorn it here; which now I do
So heartily, I think it is not worth
The
cost of keeping.